Trials and calamities are out of our control, it is part of life. I cannot say that God made all of these things, for I don't even have idea, because God love us so much, he cannot afford to see his people suffer, thats why he gave us Jesus Christ, his only son to save the humanity. All I know that everything happens in a purpose not make us down but to bring us up.
Nothing in this world never have trials and calamities, as I said those are part of our life, that we all need to undergo to make us better person. As trials and calamities drilled us the more that we need God in our lives, he want us to depend in him. He want us to need him in every moment of our lives. As we grown older we learn and understand life.
When I was small, I talk to the water falls, trees, plants and wind for no one is there for me. I do not grow normal kids who have complete family, friends and relatives. I grow up early age, it was life who really force me to grow it wasn't anyone. My father died when I was 2 years old. And mother remarried when I was 6 years old and 7 I start not seeing her at home most of the time.
We live in a farm was far from anyone around. I mostly sleep alone the house. I rarely have somebody at home. At first I cry, run to my fathers grave asked him to bring me where he is right at the moment. Or sometimes just talk to the wind blowing around me, why I am alone, why I cannot feel love by anyone, why I do not have happy family.
It was superstitious belief that I always hear from my family that it was me, why father died. It was my first tooth, I don't have idea about it, all I know my first tooth wasn't in normal place that little baby mostly grow. So I blame myself for not having a father I just thought I deserve all those pain.
An innocent little kid would never have idea what is real and not. I always told me myself when I grow up I go for revenge for those people who hurt me, and I do anyway I can. I am really have hard time growing up. But later on as I understand life, I realize that revenge cannot make me happy as individual. The first time I open my eyes seeing my baby, I realize there are more in life that I need to understand.
I started having a heart not just for own needs but for people whom I care, and others who are needed. I felt bad when I can't help because I know how exactly it feels when you have nothing to run for. Yes I face a lot of trials and different calamities in my life until now, but at the age of 31 I understand that if those things never happen I cannot be here where I am right now.
I wouldn't have courage to make something new, I wouldn't have a story for me to write and inspire people. I always want to see people happy around me and until this moment I am still asking God to give me enough strength to follow his will for me, and continue give me a selfless heart for me to love even those people who hate and see me into miserable life.
We are God's people and he love us equal. All are equal in his eyes, and you should know that he love you more than anyone loves you. Let us walk with God, and trust him with all our hearts. Those calamities are part of life, the help and support that we receive from others are enough for us to feel that God never abandon us. He sent all angels to rescue us.
I may wish that you walk with God presence in your life and that my story bring a little joy in your heart because you deserve to be happy and no can change your mindset but you alone. Love people even those hate you because God love them too as he loves you.Thank you for visiting my corner see you again
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